Those Lies I Hide Behind My Kamera

Kamera; Wilco

I need a camera to my eye
To my eye, reminding
Which lies I have been hiding
which echoes belong
I've counted out days
to see how far
I've driven in the dark
with echoes in my heart

Phone my family, tell them I'm lost
on the sidewalk
and, no, it's not OK

I smashed a camera
I wanna know why
To my eye deciding
which lies i have been hiding
Which echoes belong
I'm counting on
a heart I know by heart
to walk me through this war
Memories distort

Phone my family, tell them I'm lost
on the sidewalk
and, no, it's not OK

I've counted out
and no one knows how far
I've driven in the dark
with echoes in my heart

Phone my family, tell them I'm lost
Yeah, I'm lost
and, no, it's not OK
    
     I happened to stumble over this song just yesterday, and I thought, this would be a great time to show my my wonderful affinity forphotography! The song is really beautiful, and the words give it something extra wonderful. The song has two meanings for me: the way photography lets you go into a different world, and pretending things are okay.
     I'm going to start with the latter, only because I want to end on a light note (for once). The most common lie in the world is, "I'm fine," or, "I'm okay." I love the chorus in this song where it says, "and, no, it's not OK." I mean, have you ever just felt terrible, and when someone asks you if you're okay you just say yes? Did you ever realize that you just say yes because you don't want to bore them? Personally, I start to feel scared to tell people because I get worried that they'll think that I'm being annoying, and I'll ultimately feel worse. The song just sounds very real and honest which makes me somehow feel stronger.
     Quite clearly one of the meanings of this song is the way photography makes this band feel. Ever since I've gotten into photography, I haven't been able to stop. I was able to create art in a new way, and it felt amazing to me. Not only that, but I felt like I could seek a world that wasn't mine through my lens. The song expresses this too, but Wilco uses a camera to see their reality, not fantasy. I found that interesting. I mean, I had never thought of using my camera to seek reality, but when I thought about, I guess I sometimes look through my lens in hopes to see if I can find what I hadn't been able to before. Though I guess a picture speaks a thousand words, the moments while looking through that lens are what speak to me the most.